Why self awareness of our own sins?


The seven deadly sins: otherwise known as the capital vices;

pride, greed, lust, jealousy (envy), gluttony, anger and laziness

are named deadly because they are serious obstacles to divine life, 

and can lead to spiritual death; separation from God.

They are also the origin of many mental health issues, where 

the problem has been ignored or denied, gone underground, but still 

continues to create problems for the person.  The disturbance, the lack 

of inner balance,  will manifest itself in different ways, the person might 

seek help in the medical profession and be assigned a psychologist, 

counselor, or/and be put on medication to reduce the symptoms. 

So we can see how unawareness of how 

they affect our spiritual and mental health is a serious issue.


Anger often has it's origin in hurt; this is a feeling, regardless of it's 

justification, and from this feeling anger is often created. 

Anger is a strong energy. It can be utilized in a creative and life giving way, 

but if anger is out of control it is deadly. It can literally lead to death.

If it is expressed in words, it can kill love instantly, relationships, trust, but 

also as we know, uncontrolled anger often causes people to physically kill 

other persons.


The regular random attacks on the population; in schools, shopping malls, or 

anywhere, are manifestations of uncontrolled rage. 

Anders Breivik, for example, who shot and killed 77 innocent people in 

Norway, was as a child hurt by his mother, (who was herself a victim of abuse), 

and to put it simply; this turned into uncontrolled rage. 

He needed to take revenge for the damage done to him; the target can be almost 

coincidental; even though he had chosen a political and ideological target; 

what was the most important was the release of the energy, because it became 

to much to contain. 

It is the same process as people who practice self harm; cutting and hurting 

oneself, which reduces the internal intensity; as it is channeled outwards and 

gets a chance to manifest itself on the outside, it makes them "feel better", 

restores balance. 


I knew somebody who all her life carried unresolved anger stemming from 

feelings of having been rejected as a child, feelings of hurt. 

This energy surfaced regularly, almost anything or anybody could trigger it.

Anyone who became a target could forget about the friendship; she would cut 

you off and you would never see her again. 

She was also very impatient, she was often unwilling to listen, in addition; 

and quite unnecessarily, she had been put on medication, and the end result 

was that she took her own life. 

Bitterness can come out of anger, and also

desperation; the loss of hope, which can lead many to suicide.


All these sequences are created inside the person; it is their own creations,

maintained by the repetitions of their own thoughts which sustains and 

nourishes it. 

Thoughts are words, unspoken words. 

Words have the power to create and to kill. 

Prayers are words too.

The prayers of the Church are codified phrases and expressions which 

should be repeated every day, and must not be changed.

They are not a coincidentally randomly put together collection of seemingly 

incomprehensible mumbling. 

With repetition and patience the power of their words and the accompanying 

gradual awakening to their meaning will eventually penetrate to our brains

and enlighten us.     

We begin to see that everything the Church teaches in regard to our fall from 

grace is true, and due to our obstinate continuation in leading sinful lives, 

by refusing to convert = change, we perpetuate it and pass it on to the next 


The most powerful weapon we have is our tongue; our words.

Our words are incredibly powerful.


Yes, anger is a deadly sin, no matter what the causes or the origin of it. 

It destroys and kills. As it is literally in us, like a heavy blanket wrapped 

around our heart: our soul, it separates us from our true selves and from God.

This HAS TO BE acknowledged by us, we must be aware of it, admit it, and 

manifest this awareness outside ourselves, in order that it can COME OUT.  

Recognizing the harm it is causing in our lives, in our families, our communities. 

Confessing it to the priest. 

If everybody did this psychologists and psychiatrists would be out of work.


Our willpower, bodies, minds, feelings, reactions, opinions, our situations; 

forms the material we are using when we practice the Faith, they are our tools. 

It is not just by putting in an appearance at Mass, or going on pilgrimages; 

that alone does not make anybody a Catholic. 

This is why we say that the Catholic Faith is an embodied 

faith; it is a lived experience, including our crosses. Jesus showed us, 

and He told us that if we want to be His disciples we have to pick up our own 

crosses and follow Him.  Our human nature does not want this, it will let us 

know it's opposition, resistance and even revolt to it, but the Catholic Faith is 

not a natural (pagan)  religion, it is supernatural.  




"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full." John 10:10


To steal does not only mean to physically take something that does 

not belong to us. 

It is much wider and often more subtle, than that. 

It can be to have an attitude and an outlook in life of something like:

"What is in it for me?", or "Is there anything in it for me?"

in almost any decision making big or small. If the person cannot 

perceive any personal gain, they decide against it, because they are out to 

take, obtain something freely and easily, without going through the correct 

normal channels; work, and being honest and transparent. 

That person might be found anywhere, also in the Church. 

The person would not hesitate to break your friendships, by "stealing" 

them too, by inserting themselves between you and them

They would not be interested in making their own 

friends, they want to take yours and destroy your friendships. 

Same goes for spiritual possessions, they understand that it has value, and 

so they sneak in, pretending to be interested,  hoping they can grasp it 

and use it for their own gain. 

They do not understand that that is impossible, but if they can rob you of it, 

there will be some passing  satisfaction for them.

They are impostors, they only go to Mass where people know them,

not where nobody knows them, because they are seeking the approval 

of men, not of God.


“Everything they do is done for people to see: They make their phylacteries wide 

and the tassels on their garments long;"  (Scribes and Pharisees)

Matthew 23:5 


They will not contribute even when it is expected of them, as a natural and 

appropriate donation to the Church, because they are there to take, not to give. 

They might even feel that the Church is privileged to have someone like them 

amongst them.   As we know that the wolf is frequently dressed as a sheep, 

we need to be awake.


This approach to life is related to   

"For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their 

life for me will find it"

(Matthew 16:25)


It means to take risks to one's personal life because the fear of the Lord has 

dominance in our lives. God comes first; all decisions must be taken with 

needing to be right with Him before anything else, regardless of the 

consequences to our selves, because our salvation depends on it. 

It is obedience and also manifests our great confidence in God. 

They are often acts of Faith. 

And God never returns such obedience and love with anything but generosity.


The person who is in a permanent state of self preservation, however, 

even as far as to the detriment to those he/she proclaims to love, 

that person might sacrifice or accuse whoever it takes, 

in words and deeds, in order to "save" himself. 

It is a fearful person, without knowledge nor confidence in God.  

It is a self serving love, and in the end the person will be lost.


Now that the evidence of the harm the covid 19 injection is being recognized

also in the main stream media, I think of all the Catholics who agreed to be 

injected with an acknowledged  experimental injection made from stem cells 

of aborted babies.  Some were definitely under sever pressure to take it, under 

the threat of losing their job and in order to provide for their families, they took 


Many did pay with their lives, but many did it for the right reasons. 

But many others did not take it for the right reasons; their motivation was fear 

and confidence in their corrupt governments. Immoderate and unreasonable 

fear paralyzes the intelligence and logic. The official statistics told us all the time 

that the virus presented a minimal risk, but in spite of this many people who were 

not under any obligation or financial pressure to take it, went ahead and took it, 

no matter what their family said, and even with partners and spouses pleading 

with them not to do it.  They were trying to save themselves to, and how many 

ended up killing and maiming themselves instead.


I am neither a doctor nor a scientist, but giving all the information that was 

available to everybody from the very start, I was ready to die, rather than 

inject a very questionable concoction,  made from abortions, into my body. 



Born into Eternal Life


This star marks the spot where Our Lord Jesus Christ, true God and true Man, 

was born in Bethlehem.

As it happens it is also the first Catholic Church I was ever in. 

The starting point of my journey was there.

I had been baptized as a baby in the Lutheran church, but I had never really engaged with it.

Not long afterwards the visit to the Church of The Nativity in Bethlehem I was 

received into the Catholic Church; the most important decision I have taken in my life.

It is a journey; learning, implementing and deepening the precepts of the Church. 

How much did I really understand of the Sacraments and the teaching in the beginning?

I don't know, but I know that I understood enough to know that it was correct, not always 

easy, for sure, but the only Way.